Blaqwildflowr – Undefeated

Curated By Ralph

"The Road Not Taken" is a source of inspiration for me, because it encourages me to seize opportunities and chart my own course in life.

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To wrestle With depression Is like coming to the match Trying to convince myself this is my Weight class Only to suffocate underneath its defeat I fear Love will not find me before death does Karma won't let me give the life to a Child already took from my unborns I'm Wrestling every time I try to duck under To grip my remorse depression's Force Blocks me with the shame of being kicked Out of college pled guilty for someone Else yet I'm always wrestling with Trying to trust myself to stand up for My own truth and then always encouraging Someone else to fight for theirs I'm Wrestling with my body's innocence being Taken at eight or nine or ten or some Number I claim because I wanted to Forget what it felt like for my Grandmother not to believe in me that's The only reason I entered this ring was To prove her wrong and I'm wrestling I'm Wrestling with forgiving myself an Opinion that I could never be a woman Who leads or makes a living writing Poetry and I'm tangled in a tie up with The fact that the pastor who was Supposed to pray for me Prayed on me And I still went to his church Still smiled

Still taught on love all the while Hating myself for sacrificing my inner God for a religion that didn't even Believe in me I'm wrestling with Depression dressed in imposter syndrome Like am I really okay or have I trained Myself to pretend that I am when Depression grapples me you got this they Say you're a strong black woman and to Them this is strong enduring a battle For someone else's entertainment Depression says they don't like you they Don't love you only want to judge how Well you articulate describing your Tussle with mental health and that Itself is a struggle trying to explain About that others don't think exists for Black women but I am not angry I am Antagonized and I'm tired of writing These poems trying to figure out how I'm Gonna rip myself open for you to find Healing I cannot save my grandmother or My reputation at college or my Stepfather From his pastoral sins or you I can only Save myself and this time depression I Will not let you take me down I am Strong I am not just strength I am God Submit to my womb I am present I am here I am not a failure I will never be Pinned down unless I put this pin down And I ain't tapping out I ain't stopping I got you now cause I forgive my Self-doubt I forgive my self-doubt I got

You now depression is no match for me [Applause]

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